This week I cleaned my closet for the millionth time. As I was cleaning I noticed how the state of my closet kind of represented how I care for myself. All my clothes were all on the floor, nothing was hung up, and I had things that I needed to get rid of that I was holding on to. I realized that each of these things represented a part of my life. I don’t know why I noticed it but I did. Once I realized it I texted my friend and told her what I had discovered and she couldn’t do anything but agree. Now I am going to share what I learned with you.
If you would have looked in my closet a few days ago you would see my clothes all over the place. Like they were all over the floor. While my husband’s side of the closet his clothes were hung up all neat. Whenever I wash clothes I start out neatly putting the clothes away and then over time I would need to look for something and my clothes will wind up all over the closet. To me this represents how disorganized I am in my life. I do nlot value the things that are dear to me. I am always having to look for something. So in a way it also represents me feeling like I am always searching for something. So I am not focusing on my needs.
Another thing that I notice is I take really good care of my husband’s belongings. So his clothes are hung nice and neat. While even though mine are neat at times I still wind up turning it into a mess eventually as I mentioned before but I keep his hung up and his things are easy to find most times. So this tells me that I still take care of others better than I take care of my own self. My way of treating my stuff really affects how I deal with my day to day. It’s all over the place and so am I . Everything is really scattered and my closet really represents that.
I also realized that I have some old clothes. In my head it’s like I will wear that again or I will be able to fit into that again soon. But in actuality I am just holding on to them for no good reason at all. These old clothes symbolize my inability to not let go. It’s like I think if I hold on to it and hold on to it long enough that what I believe will be true. In actuality holding on to these clothes just allows me to remain where I am. Also it shows my fear that if I let go of these clothes that I will be unable to obtain the goals I have set.
After I realized these things I decided to make my closet more functional. I got somethings my clothes are neat and I got rid of some things. Now I have the urge to just remodel my entire closet to make it match my life. So currently I won’t be posting a picture of it cause I still have some work to do. But know I am now on a mission.
If you want to know how well you are treating yourself. Take a look at your space around you. It will tell you all that you need to know.