Today was an okay day. I started my day off with putting away laundry that was done two days ago. I had let it sit in mine and the husband’s room until I felt like putting it up. Today wasn’t a workout day. I try to workout at least three days out of the week. Those days are usually Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Tuesday and Thursday I pretty much just leave open. After putting up the clothes I continued to prepare to go to work. I wound up having to order an Uber because rain was predicted for later in the day which meant I couldn’t ride my bike like I had planned to. The Uber came quicker than normal. Usually I have up to a twenty-five minute wait but this time it was nine minutes. This caused me to rush and I wound up leaving my breakfast.
Got to work. I work with kids so we are doing virtual learning. Let me tell you this is not an easy task by far. Trying to get the kids to log in and stay on task is not easy at all. Some of the kids just don’t want to do virtual learning. They would rather be playing, watching television, on social media, or anything else besides school. Sometimes trying to convince them to do what they are suppose to do is a losing battle. So we send them out and let the parents know what is going on. Unfortunately that doesn’t really go over well with the parents but we do the best that we can. Some parents need documentation to see that we did try to get the child in class and on task so we make sure we document those things. We had a incident like that today. Fortunately us documenting everything and being able to prove that we tried allowed The parents to have a conversation with their child. We want the parents to know that we care about their child and their education but it’s really up to the child to do the work.
I as a parent understand wanting your child to get their work done but I also see myself as realistic enough to know that my kids can’t be forced to do something they truly don’t want to do. I know my kids and even I can only help them so much. Sometimes all the punishment in the world can’t make a kids love something they truly hate. Yeah they need to get an education but if they don’t enjoy it that is really going to be at the bottom of their list of things to do. As a parent of my children aren’t doing what they are suppose to I’m going to find out what is going on. I’m automatically going to assume it’s my kids and no one else. Trust me I think the parent did the right thing asking what was happening I would have. I try to put myself in the parents shoes and not take things personally. Honestly this whole virtual presenting thing is taking its toll on all of us. Even a year later we are all still adjusting to this new normal. So we all need some grace honestly. Especially the children. I’ve decided I’m going to pay extra close attention to the child when he is at the center. Maybe he needs some extra help.
What I’m not saying in the description of what happened is that when I heard that a parent had a complaint I immediately started freaking out on the inside. Even though I knew we had documentation and everything I immediately started losing it internally because this parent wasn’t happy with the way we were caring for her child. I knew that we did all we could to get this child in class but he was set on doing what he wanted. I had myself in the unemployment line before anything could be figured out. I don’t know why when something pops up I immediately think of the worse thing that can happen and run with it. It may not even be that serious. Things worked out in the situation but afterwards I still had to get my mind to believe that everything was okay. So I called The Husband and talked to him until I calmed down.
It just really bothers me that I am so insecure. It doesn’t take much to shake my confidence or make me question myself. If anyone shows any disapproval towards me I’m ready to do all I can to make people happy. That one incident has me shaken and questioning if I was doing my job right even though I knew I had. I wish I was that person who didn’t take everything personally or doesn’t feel shattered because someone said something to me but I am that sensitive person. Then whatever is said to me I have to break it down and see where I can improve and protect myself. Like for this situation I’m going to make sure trust I document everything that is going on. Will that stop a parent from complaining probably not but knowing I have things written down will give me peace of mind. That will ensure next time something arises I can confidently handle the situation instead of feeling weak. I also have to be confident in the fact that I’m doing the best I can understand the circumstances we are all in.