Yesterday The Husband and I went to a restaurant. As we were sitting down to eat I started to pay attention to the way I eat. I got to a point where I was full so I stopped eating. Then a few minutes later I started eating again. I wasn’t really hungry I just was eating. I stopped eating. Not even five minutes later my hand was back in the bag. In order to stop eating I had to take the food and throw it away.
I’m trying to really change my eating habits and that includes being okay with not finishing my food. It’s really hard for me to be okay with not finishing eating because I’m use to making sure I eat everything in front of me. I’ve been like that since I was a kid. I prided myself on eating everything on my plate. Of course that is what parents want you to do eat. Now my parents weren’t the if you don’t eat you will stay there all night type. They were more like okay you’re not hungry anymore then you are too full to get this dessert we have or that soda, juice, or whatever we had to drink outside of water. Which I completely understand. My kids have tried that trick on me. Kids at my job have even tried it. They wanted us to listen to our bodies. Which I loved. There is no way I was going to convince them I was suddenly able to eat cake. So my goal was always to clean my plate. I don’t think it’s my parents’ fault. In fact I’m not blaming them at all.
Now that I’m an adult I still have that same mentality. That I need to clean my plate. When I don’t I feel guilty because it’s food going to waste. Yes I’m the person thinking of the thousands of people who would love to have food to waste but don’t have it. So I’m like at the very least I can finish it. I even try to cook to where we have no leftovers because I hate when food just sits in the fridge. If I see it I’m probably going to try to eat it because it makes no sense to let the food just sit there. It gets harder when I am at a restaurant. When I order something in a restaurant I definitely feel obligated to eat because I’m spending that money.
I’ve come to realize that my thinking that way is going to affect my weight loss goal. That it’s okay to not finish something and walk away. The world won’t end if I don’t finish a meal big enough to feed two people. I also have to remember food is nourishment. It’s meant to help my body not for me to stuff myself. I need to listen to my body more and also train it to know when I have had enough.
I’ve started to pay more attention to my habits and what is causing me to eat. I start asking myself questions like why am I eating and if I’m hungry or bored. Am I eating just because food is in front of me? I am working on training my body to me starting portion control so I don’t need large portions of food to be full. I’m of course also exercising. But I have to change my eating habits to be more successful.
The plan is to change my way of eating and keep it that way. Well at least be consistent with it. It’s time because I’m not the size I want to be. Plus I want to be healthy.