Today is a very bittersweet day today. Today my son is off to his last first day of high school. I can’t believe my last baby is about to be officially out in the world. Well there is college but this is his final year where he is under my protective wing. Once he is done with high school all his choices are basically his own. I mean they have always been his own but he won’t have to come and get my opinion. I do hope he will continue to ask for advice and accept it (if it works for him).
I don’t really know what this year will hold. But I do know no matter what I will be proud of my child. He is such a hard worker. I just keep thinking about how quickly time has passed and we are here now. Shucks in a few months my baby will be 18. Like I am really internally freaking out but I will definitely be okay. I just can’t wait to see where his future is going but yet I am scared at the same time. The world isn’t exactly time to young black men as of late. But I know he has to go out into this world no matter what I want. But the plan is to enjoy every moment and enjoy his journey. I look forward to seeing how this year shapes up. I am rooting for him to reach his highest potential.
I just can’t believe this is my last baby to exit high school. Before you ask there will be no more babies this way. I am just realizing that I need to start figuring out what I will do after this chapter is closed. I mean I will always be their mom but I will have a bit more time on my hands. He still has college and will still need my support but it will be different. I have already started working on my chapter 2 as mom. My world will not just be my kids. I will have to define myself outside of that world. I know I will figure it out but I am still thinking what will I do now. It’s just a thought that is on my mind. I just at the end of the day. Hope my baby has a wonderful first day and an amazing school year.