Today I really surprised myself. Most times I really don’t handle pressure really well. When I feel a bunch of pressure I find myself feeling overwhelmed and then it is all down hill from there. I usually start second guessing my decisions, getting confused, and just driving myself crazy. I have been like this for awhile now. Once I start feeling these emotions it leads to me exploding in anger or I wind up wanting to ball up in a corner and cry. I am already not a really good decision maker because I am not confident that I am making the right decision. I am even worse when I feel like I have to come up with quick decisions.
Today I proved to myself that I could handle pressure. Being a person who likes routine, likes to know what is coming next, and likes a plan it can really throw me off when situations arise where things just don’t go that way. Today there was a mix up at work to where my job wasn’t open like it was suppose to be. A coworker went out of town and I guess they forgot to ask one of us to come in and open instead. I got a call asking me if I could make it over there quickly. Luckily I don’t live far. I was riding with another coworker. I text and let her know what was going on. So we got over there as soon as we could. A few minutes after we got there some parents pulled up. We decided that we would take the kids and put them in her car until another coworker could come and let us in. We wound up with three kids in the back of her car. I have to admit it helped having a coworker who also knew what to do. We handled the situation. I didn’t freak out at all. Thirty minutes after we got there the coworker came and let us in. We immediately got to our duties. I almost lost it at one point when I couldn’t find something I was looking for but The Husband called me and said some positive affirmations with me. That was a huge help. It is just frustrating when things are just thrown off. I usually struggle to get things done. But things worked out for the best.
Knowing that I can handle these things better now than I did before makes me feel more confident in my decision making. Today I even planned an outing with The Husband we parked the car and took a walk to Chick-fil-a. We were going to walk somewhere else but decided against it. I just switched to a restaurant where we both would enjoy the food. The little change of restaurants didn’t bother me. We still did our date and then came home. I was just glad things worked out the way I wanted them to. I think if I keep going it will help build my confidence and will make me better and stronger than I am now. The only thing I can do is wait and see.