I am not a fan of shopping. I mean I love getting new things but the whole shopping process I can do without. I think it has gotten worst since I put on this weight. Cause when I was younger I enjoyed it more. It was easy to find things that I like. Actually before I got pregnant with my daughter my main problem was finding something that didn’t look real baggy on me because I was super thin. It was annoying when I couldn’t find anything to fit right. Then I am also picky on my style. I am a pretty conservative person. I don’t like a lot of skin showing. Lately it has become so hard to find things that suit my taste.
This particular trip was so frustrating. I think it is because that I really need to put more effort into my weight lost. I couldn’t find anything that I liked and look good on me or selections were far and in between. For example I tried on something from the Kardashian line while it looked cute on the hanger when I put it on it looked horrible. I was so disappointed because I thought the dress was really cute but it didn’t complement my shape at all. It immediately made me look pregnant. Meaning it brought attention to my gut that I am desperately trying to get rid of. With my stomach being my trouble area I am not trying to call attention to it. I just felt like it was waving to me as I looked in the mirror. Then the other problem was I would find things that I liked but it wasn’t in my size. This was all while I was in Sears and Forever 21. Then add on top of my pickiness that I had my two kids and The Husband with me. All who have very little patience so I am trying to hurry and find something but look good as well. But as difficult as this shopping trip was I did find two dresses that I liked but it did make me realize I much I want and need to lose weight. Trust me this gut does not do my body justice at all. I want to be in the middle of who I am now and who I was back then. I don’t want to be super skinny or super big. I want to find a balance with the two. I want to go shopping and find the perfect outfit and it fit great on me. I want too many options not too little. It really is so frustrating. Being that I have been on both ends now I just want to be happy with me. However until I do I will keep playing with what I can find until I find what suits me.