This is not a sponsored post. I’m just sharing a service that I like.
Yesterday I had my first video therapy session. It was an interesting but good experience. You see I’ve been talking about doing therapy for years but just never really had the nerve to do it. I just was never really ready. I would make excuses to not go. One being that I just didn’t have the time to do it. I just wasn’t ready to face the issues I need to deal with. Believe me the list is not short at all.
For the past few years I’ve been hearing a lot of things about the app Talkspace. You could get therapy sessions without having to leave your home. That made me start considering therapy even more. This took away any excuses I had about not having time to actually go in and see someone. I could be comfortable in my home and deal with my issues. It sounded like the perfect thing for me.
Let me explain why I think I need therapy. I have some things that I don’t think I dealt with properly in the past. I off Think that these issues have affected my adult life. For example I’m a huge people pleaser. I will do almonds anything to make someone happy. Even if it means hurting me. Not in the physical since. I mean I will set myself aside and do what a person needs before giving myself what I need. I let people get away with a great deal because I don’t like to hurt people’s feelings. I struggle making decisions. My major problems are I don’t really have any boundaries, I don’t really stand up for myself, and I’m a huge procrastinator. I really want to know why I am this way. The only way to figure that out is to talk to someone. I clearly have some things to work on. I tried to do it myself and it’s clearly not working.
So because I have these problems I decided not to hesitate anymore. I signed up for Talkspace. Now I procrastinated on actually choosing a therapist for a few weeks because I was super nervous. I wanted to pick the best therapist for me. The main requirements I had that she be a woman and that she look like me. Now I’m not saying those who didn’t meet these requirements weren’t good but I feel like this is what works best for me right now. I started out texting and telling her a little bit about myself. We did this for about two weeks. Then I scheduled a 10 minute appointment. From jump she made new feel really comfortable talking to her. I wound up telling her about a current issue right off the back. I was planning to start slow but the issue came up a few minutes before she called. It was very refreshing to be heard and she asked me some questions that really made me think. As you can tell right now I’m not really comfortable with sharing what we talked about but just know she really helped me out. I will tell you I had to make a decision on my own and that’s something I’m really not used to doing. When I have to make a decision I try to take everything anything to consideration. Sometimes too much. Especially if the decision will make someone else in my life unhappy. I struggle with being okay with that. She asked me why I thought I was like that and right now I really don’t have an answer. I am going to have to explore and figure that out. At the end of it I felt like we kind of accomplished something. If we can do that in 10 minutes what could we do in a full session. I can’t wait to see.
I feel like this is the right thing for me and I’m moving forward. I’m excited to see where it all leads. I’m not sure if I’m ready for all the answers I might get but I have to prepare for the difficult answers and take responsibility for what I need to take responsibility for. Right now I think that Talkspace is the perfect situation for me.