I find that sometimes that I have to remind myself that I’m human. That is okay to make mistakes and not be perfect. I find myself struggling to be all to everyone. I want to be a wonderful wife and mother. When I find myself falling short in either of those departments I am highly disappointed in myself. I’m not okay with not being at the top of my game. I realize that I’m never going to be perfect but I realize that I want to be as close to it as possible. Which turns into me putting more pressure on myself than anyone else. I just want to think about everything I’ve done and say that I’ve tried my best and that I gave my all. I want my children to look back at their childhood and say that they have a great Mommy and for my husband to think about all the great times we have had and smile.
I am now realizing that to be the best that I want to be that I have to realize I’m human and cannot be everything to everyone all the time and sometimes I have to focus on myself and put myself first. I also have to realize that I will make mistakes and try my best to learn from them. This will hopefully make me into a better me. I think that if I stop taking my mistakes so hard that they will not become an easy weapon to use against me. I sometimes wish that I had super human strength to where I can be there for everyone and to be able to do what I need to do. I plan on working on that for myself. So that I can be a better mom and wife.