As I continue to grow and become a better me I realize that some people prefer the old me over the new me. They are used to me not really caring about how I am treated, how I look, or anything. So when I start to not tolerate things it is a shocker for them. They seem to want me to go back to the old quiet Katherine and I just can’t be that person anymore because that person didn’t work for me. I didn’t like that person. She served her purpose and now it is time to move on.
I’ve come to realize that sometimes people prefer the old you as opposed to the new you because that is what they are used to and comfortable with. With this new you they have to adjust and get to know you all over again. They also know they won’t be able to treat you the way that they used to. Also while you are growing and learning you might come to realize some thing that they didn’t expect you to. As you become stronger and learn to stand up for yourself they get upset because they can no longer take advantage of you. When you begin to be a better you some people who you thought were there for you no longer will be because you don’t need them the way you use to need them or they can’t use you in the way that they used to. For example if people are used to you always saying yes to whatever it is they ask and you tell them no one day more than likely they are going to get upset and you will see a side of them that you have never seen before. They want you to go back to being the same weak person you used to be who did whatever they asked so they don’t have to do their own work. When people can no longer get what they want out of you they begin to show you their true colors. Because if they actually cared they would support your changes and be proud of you. In time you will see who is truly there for you and who isn’t.
Since I have changed I realize now that some people just aren’t going to like it. I have to be okay with that. The reason why I have to be okay with that is because I refuse to go back to the old me. Whenever I think about the old me it actually makes me pretty sad. To think about how I allowed myself to be treated and how I treated myself. I guess at the time I felt I deserved it but I actually didn’t. I hated that I did it but no longer. I am okay with fighting for this new version of me. Those who want the old me can keep wishing for her but they won’t get her. I don’t mind fighting for this person I have become and the person I am growing to be. But I won’t to back to who I was and won’t be kept where I am now. If there is room to go I will always choose to grow c