I have been working for almost three years. Don’t get me wrong I’m glad to be working. It is a job that I love and it is keeping us update with bills. However I’m realizing that it makes other areas of life harder.
I think being at home with my kids spoiled me. I was able to do a bunch of things with them and just basically be there for them. I didn’t have to worry about scheduling time off or missing anything important. It’s even more difficult now that I have one in college. While working I only have a certain number of days that I can take off. But I figured it would all balance it’s self out. I wasn’t prepared for it. I actually miss being able to just be there for my kids and my husband. I knew that things would change once I started working.
Since I have been back working I have trying to be the same mom and wife that I was at home before I started working. I thought I could continue to be everything that I was before I started working. But now I am realizing that I can’t be. I have to admit that I can’t. I have to admit that I can’t do it all and that I am going to drop the ball in some areas. I have to be okay with missing certain things and not being able to just drop things at a moment’s notice. I am required to plan and figure things out. I feel guilty that I can’t be who I used to be but now I have to adjust to the new me. I have to let myself off the hook and know it’s okay to adjust my life to fit into what my now is.
I have come to the conclusion that there is no such thing has a work/life balance. It is really an unattainable dream. You can have some sort of balance but it will never be perfect. You are always going to give more to one over the other at some point . More than likely your life will suffer more because you have to work to pay the bills. Sometimes trying to find that perfect balance can be so stressful. The point is at sometimes you have to make life a priority so that you can remember why you are doing all the work that you are doing.