Lately I’ve been paying a little more attention to myself. I have been looking inward more because I’ve been dealing with a situation. I’ve learned that sometimes were things go left is a good thing to look in the mirror. Yes you want to point the finger at everyone else. However you have to see your part in the situation. No this doesn’t mean you are taking full responsibility but you do know what to do next time.
So I’m going to share with you all what I’ve noticed:
- I hate confrontation. When ever it comes to confrontation I will avoid the heck out of it until I can’t avoid it anymore.
- I hate awkwardness. If I feel embarrassed I will immediately go quiet. Awkward situations are so uncomfortable to me. This is another situation where it will take me awhile to speak up.
- I don’t respect boundaries. If someone tells me to leave them alone or I really want to talk about a problem and the other person doesn’t I’ll keep pressing until I get what I want or the other person explodes at me
- I’m too passive. If something is bothering me I will let the person keep doing whatever it is that is bothering me until I can’t handle it anymore. Usually that means I’ll snap at the person.
- I’m not really blunt or serious. I’ve been known to laugh when something is bothering me. So if I say something is bothering me and I’m laughing that usually means I’m uncomfortable with confronting whoever is about the situation. Then because I’m giggling they don’t really take me serious.
Now that I realize these things about myself I’m of course going to work on them. No these things won’t be fixed in a day. As a matter fact I know it won’t. Just like it took time to create these habits its going to take time to get rid of them. I’m just glad I’m starting to recognize them myself.