I have never been really good at taking criticism or maybe I am not good at receiving the way criticism is given. I have been known to really take to heart the things that people say. I don’t know why that is maybe it has something to do with being bullied when I was younger. So now I seem to take everything as if someone is picking on me when they aren’t. I have been trying to change that because it has affected some of my relationships. I have been told that my mindset makes me difficult to talk to. Especially with The Husband. He never really wants to tell me if I have done something to upset him because of how I react. I’m not know to immediately say I’m sorry when it comes to him. Something else I am working on. But because I want to know I will usually ask him until he tells me. This is because I want to improve myself.
Because I know how he feels I have decided that it would be best that I sometimes ask him the questions that I don’t necessarily want to hear the answers to but feel I need to hear the answers to because if I don’t find out what’s wrong or what I need to improve on then it will be a source of tension for us which I don’t want to happen. I feel that if I bring the subject myself that I am better prepared to receive the answer even though he should be able to bring his problems to me no matter what. So I am working on being more approachable. I am kind of hoping that answering random questions will help that. Like today I asked him if he thought I was supportive and he asked supportive like how. I explained to him how I meant in the things he wants to do and being a listening ear. He told me he doesn’t ask for anything and no because I don’t listen. I immediately wanted to defend myself. That’s another problem I have I immediately want to defend myself after he gives a response but this time I stopped myself and said okay. So now I know I need to work on listening. I’m hoping eventually he will come to see that he can talk to me but hopefully time will tell.
