Happy New Year! For the past few years I have taken to choosing a word that will define my New Year or something that I need to work on that I want to improve on. In the past I have chosen words like focus. Last year they were forward and no excuses. When I think about it I think that I actually did move forward on a number of things this year. I was really working on not harping on the past cause I tend to internalize things and use them as an excuse as to why I couldn’t get things done. That was always my go to when I didn’t get something done. I can’t do this because when I was a child this happened or I don’t do that because that happened. My past became my crutch so I wanted to let that go. I also would also find any reason not to do anything I was suppose to do on a regular basis. So I also wanted to work on that.
When I look over my 2019 I think I did hold up to those words. I don’t really use excuses as much. I still have some work to do. I don’t think I will ever not use any excuses but if there is something I am suppose to do I try to do it when I say I am going to do it. My excuses were a big problem between my husband and I cause I would always find a reason as to why I didn’t do something. Now I just try to make sure there is a valid reason. I really am trying to get better at keeping my word. I also learning to recognize not to promise to do something I actually can’t do or have no intentions on doing. I am horrible at that. But there is always room for improvement.
As far as my past I really think I have moved forward on a number of things. I have let go of many things that I was holding on to. I really think I lived more in the present this year. I wasn’t always looking back. Many decisions I made before were based on something that happened to me before. I think the biggest thing I let go of was not confronting people because it never went well in the past. Now I know I can’t just not do things because of something that happened with someone else before. Now if I feel I really need to talk to someone about something that I will.
I thought about my word for 2020 for awhile. Cause we are starting a whole new decade. I really want to choose a word that I can look back on and know I really improved on. So I want to start this decade off right. So after much consideration I have decided my word for 2020 will be consistency. I am the queen of starting something and then just giving up or I will just fall off with it. I realize that, that isn’t a really good quality. Along with being a procrastinator. So basically I either never start or I start and never finish. I really want to conquer both of these problems. Because I need to be consistent and start something in order to get to my next goals. So that’s why I chose the word consistency.
Do you choose words for the New Year? What do you do to prepare for the new year? What do you want to accomplish in 2020?
