I have been struggling with eating and being consistently healthy for years. It has been one of my biggest struggles. Well actually the struggle was being consistent with it. I will change my way of eating and then I will workout more. But then somewhere along way I will lose motivation and go back to the way I was doing things before. The main reason I will lose motivation is from not seeing the results I want to see. It’s like why am I doing all this work if nothing is working. Other times I will give in to eating the foods that I shouldn’t be eating because I got tired of not being able to eat them because I am telling myself I can’t. But now I am seeing things in a different light.
I recently started taking this nutritional eating course that is making me see things differently. It is called Living Lean. This program it is helping me see how negative thinking could be affecting my will to stay the course of being healthy. It’s showing me that I always have the choice to have the foods that I want but I also have the choice to make another decision. Like for example I know I really like candy but I choose not to have candy in the house because I know if it is in the house I will eat it. If I do by chance have candy I buy a limited amount and then once it’s gone I won’t buy anymore candy for awhile. So by choosing not to have it in the house I am choosing to put my health first. I have to say I never really thought about how being negative could affect me. I am the one who if I don’t exercise I will feel guilty through out the day and still make bad food choices. I literally have to convince myself it is okay not to workout. Then if I do have some of the foods that I aren’t good for me I have to convince myself it is okay. Then I will beat myself up for eating it even if I did workout and did good through out the week. That one time eating poorly will derail me and I will completely give up.
I have to say though my first week of putting my new thought process into action I am feeling pretty good. I think that by mentally or saying out loud that I choose not to have something makes not having what I am saying no to easier. I don’t have this internal battle with myself and I don’t regret it later. I am also learning that if I do say yes that I can said a limit on it and still make a good choice. So instead of having two slices of pizza I can give myself permission to have one and be fine with that. So it isn’t a bad thing either way and I feel great. I am in this moment feeling great. I have chosen to own this moment and be happy in it. I am learning to take this journey a day at a time. I can’t wait to see where this ends up.
