Hello people! I know it’s been awhile since I posted anything but I had to step away for some reasons. The major reason is that I just really needed a break. I had to take some time and figure a number of things out. The only way I could figure anything out was to just pause.
So the number one thing is I don’t feel like my blog title fits who I am. Honestly it never did. I just feel as if I went along with some information that I was given and did it. Honestly I have regretted the name since I did it. I am a lifestyle blogger so I do not just want to talk about being a mom. Plus when I started the blog my kids were older. So I should have gone with my own instinct and chosen a different names. I never trust my own instincts. I felt someone else who had been in the blogging world longer than me knew better so I took the advice but I wish I hadn’t. So I’ll be changing the name soon. I just have some things that I need to put together before I do.
The next thing that was an issue for me was I stopped enjoying writing. I used to love writing. But I had turned into something I didn’t love. Trying to be on trend and keep up with everyone else. Worrying about numbers and making money causes me to just lose my joy for it. It became too much pressure for me. Yes I still want to make money from my blog but I still want to enjoy it as well. It’s supposed to be my safe place where I can write what I want and enjoy it. I just wasn’t. I was worried about people reading my stuff and finding it interesting. Wondering if people would even care about my story. It all just became so overwhelming. I also wanted to be authentic and not trying to keep up with the Joneses. I just thought my story as is wasn’t enough. Comparing myself to other people. Think my life had to be exciting. But of course it really isn’t. So I had to accept my story as is and being authentic. No I’ve never made up any stories but your wind can quickly come out of your sail when you are constantly comparing yourself to others and stopping worrying about what others are already sharing and realizing that even though they are doing what I’m doing I’m doing it my way and they are doing it theirs. (I’m totally working on this.)
Other than that life just happened. My schedule has changed at work so finding time to write has to work within it. I’ve been working on my relationship with my husband and kids. I also think that I was still mourning the lost of a family member. Just a lot going on. Plus I’ve just being enjoying not worrying about posting. Cause for awhile when I thought about posting I would literally have a whole break down about what I was going to write and it would drive her crazy. So I decided until that stopped happening and I could confidently post I just wouldn’t worry about it. So I’m still going to post but I’m just going to take my time doing it. No more pressuring myself to write a certain amount of post a week. No more stomping on my own story. I’m a work in progress on worrying about if people will read it. I’m also a work in progress on sharing more personal things because that’s another thing I was worried about so many things about being personal that I just wouldn’t write and certain things I want to share but not bash those close to me. Because honestly I’m not trying to hurt anyone I’m just trying to share the lesson. So I’m also working on that. But I wanted to let you all know changes are coming and I’m still around. But I’m taking care of me.
