Today The Husband and I dropped our youngest off at college. I knew he was going to college but it just wasn’t really to me until we dropped him off. I saw him graduate and then the packing cane but it just wasn’t real to me until then. I’m not going to lie I shed a few tears after we said our final good byes. He was so excited to go I kind of wonder if he will even miss us. Now we are empty nesters.
When we came home the house felt super empty. Plus I had no one to call when the 3 fur balls came into the kitchen while I was cooking. As soon I got home I realized that all the chores they used to do we would have to do. I’m so not looking forward to that. They aren’t just a walk up the stairs when I want talk to them. I also am worried about them as far as their new found freedom. Well my daughter of course has already been to college but she is still figuring out the whole independent thing. I hope they take full advantage of the opportunities they have while they are in school.
Along with my kids being gone and me missing them. A whole new set of fears have come up. I worry about my marriage. I’ve heard that marriage gets really real when the kids leave. I mean a majority of our lives together have been about our kids. Now they are gone. What’s next for us? I mean we love each other. So now we have to define our relationship with them gone. I’m sure we will figure it out. I really want us to focus on communicating with each other. Find new ways to connect with each other outside of our babies. There is always room for improvement in every relationship. Then there is me still working on defining myself outside of being their mom. I have come a long way but there is still more work to do.
I am so happy that my kids are following their dreams and getting the college experience that I never had. I am going to enjoy seeing them grow and become the adults they want to be. I’ve been being asked what’s it like to have an empty house. I can admit it’s definitely difficult to adjust to. It’s only been a few hours. Right now I miss them so much but I know they will be back. I didn’t have kids to push them out the house. I had them because I love them. I may have had thoughts of I can’t wait for them to go to college when they got on my nerves but that was only a temporary thought. I want my kids to know they always have a home and they can come home whenever they want. I just hope they have an amazing school year.
