There are days when I look at my daughter and wonder where my baby went. Where is the little girl who when I used to go to the bathroom used to run and stick her fingers under the door and say “Mommy are you in there”? It was something that was so annoying but so cute at the time. I think about those moments and smile. Cause those are the moments I miss. I miss the days where the simplest things would make her laugh. I just can’t believe she is almost an adult.
I still have some things that I hope will never go away. She still comes up to me and says out of the blue “Mom, I love you .” Then she gives me a hug. We still have our silly conversations that will come out of no where. Then we look at each other and laugh because we have no idea where the conversation came from. She still will come and lay down and watch television with me. Just this weekend we bonded over playing the video game together. Lego Jurassic World of all things.
I don’t think she is going to grow up and not have time for me or anything. I just know our relationship will be different because she will be figuring out the world without mom near by. I can’t make the tough decisions for her. I will only be able to support her and offer guidance when she needs it. I let her know that I will always be there for her. I will be the listening ear when she needs it and try to give her the best advice that I can. I think I am more worried about letting go and missing her.
Her growing up has made me realize that my son is not too far behind. They are a year apart in age but 2 years behind in school. You never realize how fast time flies by with your children until one is about to graduate. Now I am thinking of ways to just bond with him.
I think I am just going to just enjoy this time with my kids. You never realize how time flies until you blink. I swear my kids were just babies the other day.