This past weekend I wore a shirt that I bought some time last year. At the time I purchased the shirt I thought it was so pretty. I felt great when I tried it on. I don’t know what happened between the time I purchased the shirt and it actually came time to wear it within the days of me purchasing it but by then I decided that I look horrible it. I picked out at least 10 things that was wrong with me wearing it. I wasn’t thin enough, my arms were fat, the skirt I was going to wear it with didn’t look right (This was true.), and just anything else I could think of.
So this past weekend when I came across this shirt and realized the tag was still on it. I still had not worn the shirt. So I decided that it was time for me to face my fear of this shirt and just wear it. I had found a cute pair of pants that I could wear them with. I put it on decided that I was going to rock this shirt and love it. Ever since I have been embracing myself more I have just ben challenging myself out of my comfort zone and making sure that I stay positive and not beat myself up. I complimented myself in my head. I found things that I liked. I told myself that I looked great. Instead of finding things that I didn’t like.
The road back to loving me has not been an easy one. I am learning that most of my issues with me is more about what I think others think of me not what I think of me. I accepted that because others think there is something wrong with me that I thought something was wrong with me. But there is nothing wrong with me at all. I just had to learn to accept the changes that my body has been going through. I am not the skinny girl I once was. With accepting and getting to know the new me I am able to take better care of me. I am no longer wallowing in self pity about being bigger than I use to be. I still want to get healthy but I now realize that things won’t change if I keep thinking about what used to be. So for the past few months I have been working on doing things that embrace who I am now. I have stopped not shopping because I am not where I want to be with my body. I realize that it is fun to buy clothes as my body changes to where I am going. Plus I can always donate the things I can no longer fit.
I have been having so much fun discovering new things that I like. I am letting go of my negative thoughts and working harder to figure out what works for my body rather than what doesn’t. I have never really been a fan of shopping but I am beginning to like it even more. Once I set aside my insecurities everything just became easier. I love how accepting myself is transforming me into a better person. I plan to keep going. I am loving the me that I am becoming.
Aida ingram says
It’s amazing how easy it is to lose ourselves and it more important to realize when things need to change. I love that you were able to to make changes and that you were transparent enough to share your experiences with us.
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Marche Robinson says
I love this post! We all need to learn to love ourselves more. I definitely have gone through the same thing.
Kgilbert says
I am doing so much better now. I’m still a work in progress though.
Carissa says
I’ve been on this same journey recently…go you for stepping out there and embracing the new you! You look great!!!
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Kgilbert says
Thank you!
Johnny Wishbonn says
“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection” …
“Until you value yourself, you won’t value your time. …
“Love yourself first and everything else falls into line…
“Being true to yourself is not selfish, it’s life.
Cait says
this is so great! love your style girl 🙂 im not sure if you accept guest posts on your blog from other bloggers but i’d love to write something up for you to share if interested. some of these posts are sponsored so i’d be able to pay you too! let me know if you’d be interested!
Kgilbert says
Thank you!
Karen Akpan says
Just like you, I have sooo many clothes with tags on. I haven’t worn them yet, but this post is very encouraging and hoping I can step out of my comfort zone as well.
Kgilbert says
Thank you!
Lia World Traveler says
You look great in all of the shirts/outfits. The journey towards self-love and acceptance is one we all need to take and re-take as often as necessary.
Kgilbert says
Thank you!