Today was a pretty good day today. I still am trying to figure out my school routes. One thing I did realize today is that I still struggle with allowing myself to be taken care of. I’m so used to taking care of everyone else that I make it difficult for anyone to take care of me. When it comes to me I find myself just doing everything myself . I guess it just seems easier that way. Plus sometimes I tend to be impatient and want things to be done :: Keep Reading ::

Although I don’t have children in public school anymore the first day is still a big deal for me just because of my job. So the first day for me consists of learning names of children I pick up and figuring out the best order to pick them up in so that I can get each school in a good amount of time. This is a very frustrating process because no matter what someone I’d going to be unhappy. I being who I am hate when people are unhappy but I can :: Keep Reading ::

As I'm starting to feel more comfort in my body at the size I currently am I am learning not only to embrace the shape but how to dress for my body. For years I really didn't like shopping. I would start off excited and then slowly come to hate it. Either one of two things would happen. I would love the way I look in something then try it on and then hate it. The other thing that would happen I would love the way I look and then I would look at :: Keep Reading ::

I have tried to be one of those people who just don’t care what people think of me. I am okay with being me but I care that people have the wrong thoughts of me. Not everyone. I don’t care what strangers think of me because I don’t deal with them on a daily basis. If I have a two minute conversation with you I usually don’t care what you thought of me in those two minutes. I try to make a god first impression but I know you can’t please everyone. :: Keep Reading ::

I hate confrontation. When I have to confront someone about anything my mind always seems to manage to go to the worse case scenario for me. I just see the person flipping out on me and it turning into a very big argument. In my mind that’s how everything ends. I guess because that is how confronting someone about something they did to me has ended up in the past. So it’s like now whenever I think about confronting someone it turns into a very :: Keep Reading ::