Yesterday was my birthday! I am now 38 years old. I can’t wait to see what the journey to 39 will be. So this Self Love Monday is about that very thing. Each year I get older I start to appreciate life just a little more. I used to worry about the people who didn’t call and acknowledge that day or get mad because my birthday wasn’t celebrated the way I wish it would have been. I was all caught up in the negative things that for awhile I didn’t enjoy my birthday. I just was so consumed that I never thought about the blessing that it was. We as people can sometimes get caught up in what everyone else is doing and what they are getting that we aren’t able to see our own blessings. I started changing that last year. I got even better at it this year.
This year. I got up and just enjoyed the day. I was just super happy. I realize that there are some people who don’t make 38. I have a friend who lost her mom. At the time her mom died I believe she was 36. So when I think about the fact that her mom was so young when she lost her life I feel like I owe it to those who didn’t see that age to own it and remain positive. I should feel blessed. Then I thought about how I was doing a disservice to myself. I have accomplished so much on my journey to 38. I am a much better person and stronger. I appreciate who I am more. I am a little more outspoken, a little more independent, and on my way to be where I want to be. At 38 I feel like I am stepping into this new phase of my life where I am becoming even more sure of where I want to be and who I am.
I love the way my husband and I celebrated my birthday this year. It was reminiscent of the first time we celebrated my birthday. We went bike riding. Which is exactly what we did the first time. There were a few differences. The location was different. The first time we went to Piedmont Park. This time we went to Lenora Park. Another difference is this time I didn’t run into a pole and fly off my bike. I also didn’t get a bug in my eye. So this bike ride was so much fun. We love a good bike ride. And the biggest obvious difference must be that I am a lot older now. I’m not saying I look less beautiful, but some changes are starting to appear like my eye side wrinkles. I know I could always look for botox near me, but for now, I am happy with the way I look.
As I journey on to 39 I think I am just going to give myself permission to do so many things. Permission to make myself happy. Permission to live. Permission to try new things. Permission to make mistakes and learn from them. Permission to do self care in whatever form I think that is. I definitely give myself permission to feel. I give myself permission to leap and face my fears.