La La Land Mommy

Today I really surprised myself. Most times I really don't handle pressure really well. When I feel a bunch of pressure I find myself feeling overwhelmed and then it is all down hill from there. I usually start second guessing my decisions, getting confused, and just driving myself crazy. I have been like this for awhile now. Once I start feeling these emotions it leads to me exploding in anger or I wind up wanting to ball up in a corner and cry. :: Keep Reading ::

This weekend we really didn't do much at all we ran a few errands but that was it. We had a movie night on Friday. We watched the movie Soul. Before that we played monopoly. I had been saying that I wanted to have a game night ever since the kids got home. It just didn't happen. I realized that they would be leaving soon so I decided this weekend was now or never. So we played that night. Then Saturday we played monopoly again and later that :: Keep Reading ::

Sitting here on this chilly Friday morning I'm ambivalent about so many things, Work, home life, my kids, my direction in life, and what I want from life. I just can't wrap my head around the last two months. If you had asked me at the beginning of the year if I thought I would be in this position I would've said you were crazy. There is no wat I would go through all of this. But I did and I survived. It has truly been a crazy past few weeks. I :: Keep Reading ::

I find myself saying the word spectacular a lot. When I think about writing a blog post I find myself saying that maybe I shouldn't share this post because it isn't something that I am doing that is spectacular. I have this whole image that if I share something it has to be something amazing. I guess because when I look at other people's social media and I compare what they are doing to my life I feel unworthy of sharing my story. I find myself :: Keep Reading ::